It is a mere 3.5 hours since I posted about the day. I have eaten my last meal and the last food to part my lips was the dreaded and uncontrollable "snacky supper".
I put together a smorgasbord of leftovers and general snacks for the family - AND WE ATE IN FRONT OF THE TELEVISION! As per the norm, there was a plate of raw veggies on hand. This was the largest of all the plates. I also did a plate of protein which consisted of New Years Day turkey slices, turkey pepperoni slices, sliced salami, and slices of the flank steak that we had last night - oh and some cheddar cheese for good measure. I saw this as the "off limits" platter (though I snuck a taste of the turkey). We also had hummus and some of the laughing cow cheese spread. I made myself a small plate of olives, shrimp, and some salmon spread to make up for the "off limits" protein tray. I had more than I should but it was of the good stuff, so I am not beating myself up about it.
I had a delicious glass of a malbec I had been holding on since Christmas - (just realized that doesn't make it seem like long...but for us, it is - trust me, this is a check for the "win" column). I also am reserving the last half of my last glass of wine to sip on after the kiddos go to bed.
Then, I will be done for the day in my path of consumption and diet distruction. I plan to jog/walk in the morning which will set me up to be back on track.
Nighty, night! Let dreams of waterfall hikes, mountain climbing, and rowing in a quiet inlet on the bay fill your heads tonight.
Friday, January 4, 2013
Day 4 - Inspiration to keep going
I want so much for this to be a poignant post and believe my creative writing skills will fall short in describing how I feel right now. I want this to be an inspiration for change for everyone who reads it and I want it to be motivational for myself when I need it most. I truly want all of those things so I will do my best to convey the idea of just making up my mind.
"It was easy once I made up my mind to do it". Well, it is always easy when you have done that. Everything is easy. You make a choice and you don't look back. You make up your mind to go to school, buy a car, call a friend, order the fish instead of the burger. You make up your mind about the clothes you wear and the neighborhood you live in. Those are choices you make and they are done. Making up your mind to change your lifestyle is more complex. That is a decision you make and then you have to alter every decision in your life after that to comply with the new rules/restrictions/regulations, etc.
Once I made up my mind that I would eat better, eat less, exercise for purpose, and drink fewer of my calories, it has been *okay*. None of it is EASY. NOT ONE BIT OF IT!
I don't tend to embark on things simply because they are easy. A lot of things do come easy to me but I like to conquer mountains sometimes and create challenges for myself. Learning new things for the purpose of passing a test has been a recent series of mountains I have worked to conquer and that will continue. I also am focusing on some personal financial goals (savings goals are always exciting for me) so we can buy a new house, send the kids to college, and one day retire comfortably. All of this is fine a good: sharper mind with more knowledge and greater compensation opportunities - good; more money in the bank and becoming financially sound - good. All of this while carrying around an extra 25 pounds of fat and the lung capacity of an asthmatic - BAD!
What is the point of saving for the future and sharpening my brain if I wont be physically fit enough to enjoy any of it? Yes, I am aware that I could die of something else - right. I could also not die of something else and just be a big fat blob of an elderly person being pushed about by someone working for the weekend. No thanks!
I want to be that other woman. You know who I am talking about. The one who gets up early and rows her kayak in an inlet of the Bay. The one who makes her own granola and tends a garden because she can still get up from a kneeling position. I want to be the lady who teaches her grandchildren the same things she taught her own children.
Right now, I want to be the person who can run around a track - at least once - with out feeling like I will die. NBD...right? Ugh, this is such a first world problem! I am excited particularly today because, in spite of the fact that I didn't get up with the alarm, don my workout clothes and have my vigorous walk, I did stop at the park after dropping off Rhys at preschool and had a "coming to Jesus" meeting with myself.
There is a park with a football field and a paved track. It is a rural park so the track actually dips down behind one of the goal posts and has a decline and then incline back up the other side. It is good because, while there are flat areas, this little incline interval makes it challenging. My short-term goal is to run/jog around that track 1 lap by Valentine's day. I was able to do a little over half today and walked and jogged around it 5 times (which turns out to be a little over a mile). This is a big deal. I puffed and panted. Forced myself to keep up a pace for just a few more strides. Each time, I picked a destination and didn't allow myself to cheat. I heard the voices of friends and many cliche' lines play in my head encouraging me to keep going. Mind over body. I made up my mind. It was not easy.
Breakfast was Fiber Cereal with freeze dried peaches and half of a sliced banana
Post workout snack was sugar snap peas with hummus
Lunch was a wrap filled with a microwaved pre-seasoned frozen filet of some white fish (pretty tasty) with about 6 wasabi peas and a fistful of baby mixed greens. There wasn't enough flavor in this one but sometimes that just happens and we move on.
I had 5 pretzel M&Ms - don't hate me
I also had about 1/2 cup of freeze dried fruit
I made a big cup of half caf coffee and put a teaspoon of lowfat caramel apple dip (not a terrible choice)
I did 50 jumping jacks
I jumped rope 65 times
It is only 4:00 but I am going to go ahead and publish this. I will post a separate update with what pans out for food for today.
I will go ahead and tell you that a glass or two of wine is in the cards. I allow myself 2 adult bevvies on non-work nights...TGIF!
"It was easy once I made up my mind to do it". Well, it is always easy when you have done that. Everything is easy. You make a choice and you don't look back. You make up your mind to go to school, buy a car, call a friend, order the fish instead of the burger. You make up your mind about the clothes you wear and the neighborhood you live in. Those are choices you make and they are done. Making up your mind to change your lifestyle is more complex. That is a decision you make and then you have to alter every decision in your life after that to comply with the new rules/restrictions/regulations, etc.
Once I made up my mind that I would eat better, eat less, exercise for purpose, and drink fewer of my calories, it has been *okay*. None of it is EASY. NOT ONE BIT OF IT!
I don't tend to embark on things simply because they are easy. A lot of things do come easy to me but I like to conquer mountains sometimes and create challenges for myself. Learning new things for the purpose of passing a test has been a recent series of mountains I have worked to conquer and that will continue. I also am focusing on some personal financial goals (savings goals are always exciting for me) so we can buy a new house, send the kids to college, and one day retire comfortably. All of this is fine a good: sharper mind with more knowledge and greater compensation opportunities - good; more money in the bank and becoming financially sound - good. All of this while carrying around an extra 25 pounds of fat and the lung capacity of an asthmatic - BAD!
What is the point of saving for the future and sharpening my brain if I wont be physically fit enough to enjoy any of it? Yes, I am aware that I could die of something else - right. I could also not die of something else and just be a big fat blob of an elderly person being pushed about by someone working for the weekend. No thanks!
I want to be that other woman. You know who I am talking about. The one who gets up early and rows her kayak in an inlet of the Bay. The one who makes her own granola and tends a garden because she can still get up from a kneeling position. I want to be the lady who teaches her grandchildren the same things she taught her own children.
Right now, I want to be the person who can run around a track - at least once - with out feeling like I will die. NBD...right? Ugh, this is such a first world problem! I am excited particularly today because, in spite of the fact that I didn't get up with the alarm, don my workout clothes and have my vigorous walk, I did stop at the park after dropping off Rhys at preschool and had a "coming to Jesus" meeting with myself.
There is a park with a football field and a paved track. It is a rural park so the track actually dips down behind one of the goal posts and has a decline and then incline back up the other side. It is good because, while there are flat areas, this little incline interval makes it challenging. My short-term goal is to run/jog around that track 1 lap by Valentine's day. I was able to do a little over half today and walked and jogged around it 5 times (which turns out to be a little over a mile). This is a big deal. I puffed and panted. Forced myself to keep up a pace for just a few more strides. Each time, I picked a destination and didn't allow myself to cheat. I heard the voices of friends and many cliche' lines play in my head encouraging me to keep going. Mind over body. I made up my mind. It was not easy.
Breakfast was Fiber Cereal with freeze dried peaches and half of a sliced banana
Post workout snack was sugar snap peas with hummus
Lunch was a wrap filled with a microwaved pre-seasoned frozen filet of some white fish (pretty tasty) with about 6 wasabi peas and a fistful of baby mixed greens. There wasn't enough flavor in this one but sometimes that just happens and we move on.
I had 5 pretzel M&Ms - don't hate me
I also had about 1/2 cup of freeze dried fruit
I made a big cup of half caf coffee and put a teaspoon of lowfat caramel apple dip (not a terrible choice)
I did 50 jumping jacks
I jumped rope 65 times
It is only 4:00 but I am going to go ahead and publish this. I will post a separate update with what pans out for food for today.
I will go ahead and tell you that a glass or two of wine is in the cards. I allow myself 2 adult bevvies on non-work nights...TGIF!
Day 3
This is the new breakfast:
Egg whites, broccoli, red onion, bell peppers, garlic, feta cheese. Whole wheat English muffin.
Snack is plain ff yogurt, chia seeds, raspberries and a drizzle of male syrup. All in less than 1 cup.
Hunger strikes in mid-afternoon so I have a bowl of cherry tomatoes, bell pepper strips, and sugar snap peas.
Dinner is the last of the leftover collards, an actual portion of flank steak and a giant portion of broccoli with a crumble of feta cheese and a 12oz glass of skim milk.
I end the day with some water and a plan to take a vigorous walk in the morning. I set my workout clothes and shoes at the bottom of the bed.
Egg whites, broccoli, red onion, bell peppers, garlic, feta cheese. Whole wheat English muffin.
Lunch is a rendition of the Day 1 wrap with shrimp, cucumbers, laughing cow cheese spread, sriracha sauce, and organic mixed greens. Always in a Mission Carb Balance tortillas.
Hunger strikes in mid-afternoon so I have a bowl of cherry tomatoes, bell pepper strips, and sugar snap peas.
Dinner is the last of the leftover collards, an actual portion of flank steak and a giant portion of broccoli with a crumble of feta cheese and a 12oz glass of skim milk.
I end the day with some water and a plan to take a vigorous walk in the morning. I set my workout clothes and shoes at the bottom of the bed.
Wednesday, January 2, 2013
Day 2
Enjoying planning good food choices. Hoping to carve out some real exercise tomorrow.
Two boiled eggs and fruit salad for breakfast
Snack pack of peanuts and a banana for lunch
Clementine for snack
Leftover turkey, collards, black eyed peas and cherry tomatoes for dinner.
Two boiled eggs and fruit salad for breakfast
Snack pack of peanuts and a banana for lunch
Clementine for snack
Leftover turkey, collards, black eyed peas and cherry tomatoes for dinner.
Tuesday, January 1, 2013
The way it is now:
- Daily walks and regular exercise
- Healthy food and less of it
- Weekend-only beer/wine and less of it
Egg white breakfast sandwich!
Whole wheat English muffin
Egg white
Avocado
Grilled red onion
Salt and pepper
Snack:
Oloves
Lunch:
Shrimp wrap!
Mission Carb Balance tortilla
Laughing cow spreadable cheese
Chopped cucumber
Chopped cooked shrimp
Drizzle of srirachi sauce.
New years dinner heavy on the greens and light on the protein and carbs.
Monday, October 22, 2012
She's back?
No promises, friends, but I am posting this one and we will see how it goes. I checked out the blog this morning because I just wanted to and was so glad to find the treasure this blog held. The lives of my children were drawn in words right on the screen. Things have changed - boy have they changed. The last post was over a year ago and I will work on updating one post outlining the year that passed for posterity and will post an update on my job and schedule and all that goes with juggling work and play with children. Obviously, I am not the first to do it but doing it is a first for me so it is worth a note or two. Moving forward, the posts will likely be more photo-centered and that is fine with me. I just don't want to completely lose this snapshot of my life with young kids and hopefully will see this blog grow with my family. I feel like I have to pay attention to see the investment of my time. (get it? pay...investment?)
Anyhoo. I am going to do my real job for today and get back to this blog this evening. Ciao!
Anyhoo. I am going to do my real job for today and get back to this blog this evening. Ciao!
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